Putting an end to suffering for good does not seem like a really desirable goal. I have not come to get this. It is not that eradicating suffering is not a noble goal, and it can be for many people, but it is not my case. Practice continues to guide me and I know that I will eventually reach Wisdom, even though I don't even know what it is at this moment. The "special effects" are not satisfactory and only serve to certify where I am, so far from everyone, that the comparisons begin to become too obvious. It is at this point that I begin to see that what the entire Buddhist world considers valid and supports many of its postulates are collections of recurring falsehoods that violate logic and the suttas themselves.