Putting an end to suffering for good does not seem like a really desirable goal. I did not come to come to this. It's not that eradicating suffering isn't a noble goal, and it may be for many people, but it's not for me. The practice continues to guide me and I know that I will eventually reach Wisdom, although at this moment I don't even know what it is. The "special effects" are not satisfactory and they only serve to certify where I am, so far from everyone, that the comparisons begin to become too evident. It is at this point that I begin to realize that what the entire Buddhist world considers valid and establishes many of its postulates are collections of recurrent falsehoods that threaten logic and the suttas themselves.